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| It's finally Christmas, but it doesn't feel like it at all.
Money is tight so presents are few, but that isn't anything new.
This will be the first year we won't be eating at my grandparents house :/
Going to Uncle Gary's for sandwiches n chili
Just Mom, me, Uncle Perry, Aunt Sisi (just got home from the hospital), maybe Grandpa then Gary's.
It's going to be a big change for sure..
We're eating over there since Grandma can't eat anything.
We can't even all eat at the same time because someone has to stay here..
After we eat we are going to do presents here, but still won't be the same.
It's not even snowing!!!
Rain on Christmas = Unacceptable.
I'm going to Peoria for Christmas dinner though.
It'll be good, but I know I'll get questioned about the fam..
But it's Christmas.
Time for family and love.
We'll get through it
Because that's what we do..
MerryChristmas;;
When we were children we were grateful to those who filled our stockings at Christmas time. Why are we not grateful to God for filling our stockings with legs? ~G.K. Chesterton
The hurt began to fade and it was easier to just let go. At least I thought it was. But in every boy I met in the next few years, I found myself looking for you, and when the feelings got too strong I'd write you another letter. But I never sent them, in fear of what I might find. By then, you'd gone on with your life and I didn't want to think about you loving someone else. I wanted to remember us like we were that summer. I didn't want to ever forget that
-Dear John by Nicholas Sparks
You've got to love what you do to really make things happen.
The only rock I know that stays steady, the only institution
I know that works, is the family
I couldn't sleep last night because I know that it's over between us. I'm not bitter anymore, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I'll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I'll be seeing you.
-Noah
I had forgotten what it felt like to find someone you can't get enough of.
I've been thinking a lot lately
about taking chances and how it's
really just about overcoming your
fears. Because the truth is, every
time you take a big risk in your life,
no matter how it ends up, you're
always glad you took it.
-Scrubs
I feel like the more I try, the more I struggle.
And to be honest - you're not worth all this trouble
Faith is believing, when common sense tells you not to.
She's not the type of girl to wait by the phone. She won't cry because she knows it'll get her nowhere. She'll laugh alot and often and she'll live her own life. She'd like you to be a part of it, but she will do just fine without you.
This has everything to do with him. This is about knowing the difference between right and wrong, between a truth and a lie. He took that from you. And if you can't tell the difference, then you can't trust anyone. And if you can't trust, you can't love.
If I had my life to live over again, next time I'd give you more kisses & hold you closer. I'd memorize everything you ever said to me & carry it in my heart like a poem. If I had my life to live over again, next time I'd find you sooner so I could love you longer and better
Sometimes to realize you were well,
someone must come along and hurt you.
I'll screw up; I'll push you away if were gettin too close. I wont trust you till you've proven yourself. I get hurt easily and take a lot of things personally. But I'll love you with everything I have and if thats not enough then Im not enough.
contentment is not the fulfillment of what you want, but the realization of what you already have
sometimes i wish i hadn't been in such a hurry to move forward. there comes a point when it becomes impossible to go back
there have been lots of cars in my driveway. there have been lots of different boys on my couch. i've toyed with bad boys, momma's boys, and country boys. i've been broken by a few, and broken a few myself. i've never said "i love you" and i never had the need. i've been the rebound, the challenge, the fallback, and the girlfriend. i've been the mistake and the correction. one day, someone will love me for what i've been and what i am, where i've been and where i am. one of these days, someone will love me for me
we all need something we consider worth getting up in the morning for, regardless of whether or not it is real or not real, healthy, or destructive
"if a guy treats you like he doesn't give a shit, it's because he doesn't give a shit" -he's just not that into you
if you desire love in your life, cultivate it yourself, in your own dreams and desires, in the mark you want to make during your brief time here, in the lessons learned, in the smiles as much as the scars. fill yourself up with love, rather than waiting for someone to do it for you
"i suffer from girlnextdooritis, where the guy is friends with you, and that's it" -taylor swift
"love is the hardest habit to break, and the most difficult to satisfy"
my plan is to forgive and forget; forgive myself for being so stupid, and forget you ever existed
sometimes we need to stop analyzing the past, stop planning the future, stop trying to figure out precisely how we feel, stop deciding with our mind what we want our heart to feel, and sometimes we just have to go with "whatever happens, happens"
why do we always reject those who loves us, and instead, love someone who doesn't love us in the first place? unconsciously, we enjoy being hurt
a best friend is a connection to life, a tie to the past, a road to the future, and the key to having fun along the way
it's funny, how you can even take someone's voice for granted. and in the end, that voice, it just echoes memories...straight back at you
love me when i least deserve it, because that is when i really need it
"watching you walk out of my life does not make me bitter or cynical about love, but rather, makes me realize that if i wanted so much to be with the wrong person, how beautiful it will be when the right one comes along"
true strength is holding it all together, when no one would blame you for falling apart
i bet he lied to me very frequently, no, i know he did. it's true when i say that the only lie i've ever told him is "don't worry, i'm already over it"
"what's worse than wanting something you can't have? it's not knowing what you want. wishing on all the stars in the sky for the answers to your questions, for something to believe in, someone to hold. having absolutely no control over yourself, being caught up in a place you wish you were miles away from. being stuck somewhere between the past and the future, nowhere near where you should be: the present. stuck in yesterdays and tomorrows, so far from home, far from everything you know and love. the uncertainty could just tear you to bits"
the best moments in reading are when you come across something- a thought, a feeling, a way of looking at things, that you'd thought special, particular to you. and here it is, set down by someone else, a person you've never met, maybe even someone dead. and it's as if a hand has come out, and taken yours
"...that knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping, and even the biggest failure, even the worst most intractable mistake beats the hell out of never trying" -grey's anatomy
"i don't really believe in regrets. all my experiences, even the ones that didn't turn out the way i wanted them to, i firmly believe that they were all worth it" -gilmore girls
"you can't always sit in your corner of the forest and wait for people to come to you. you have to go to them, sometimes" -winnie the pooh
"i know it's wrong, and i don't want to be mean, but there's a little part of me that hopes you never find someone as good as me, that you always ache for what you used to have. and there's an even bigger part of me that can't wait for the day you come crawling back, asking for me. on that day, i might not, and probably won't, be there"
"a couple hundred years ago, benjamin franklin shared with the world his secret of success. 'never leave that til tomorrow,' he said, 'which you can do today.' this is the man who discovered electricity. you'd think more of us would listen to what he had to say. i don't know why we put things off, but if i had to guess, i'd say it has a lot to do with fear; fear of failure, fear of pain, fear of rejection. sometimes the fear is just of making a decision, because what if you're wrong? what if you make a mistake you can't undo? whatever it is we're afraid of, one thing holds true: that by the time the pain of not doing the thing gets worse than the fear of doing it, it can feel like we're carrying around a giant tumor. and you thought i was speaking metaphorically?" -grey's anatomy
"i remember being thirteen years old, sitting in my room all night, listening to the same song over and over. i thought that if i could write something beautiful, something honest, i could make someone love me"
every single person in this world has at least one secret that could break your heart
"no relationship is perfect, ever. there are always some ways you have to bend, to compromise, to give something up in order to gain something greater. the love we have for each other is bigger than these small differences. and that's the key. it's like a big pie chart, and the love in a relationship has to be the biggest piece. love can make up for a lot" -sarah dessen
"people don't stay in your life forever. maybe he came in, you loved him, you learned from him, and now there's nothing more for him to teach you. maybe your time with him is done. maybe it's really time to just let him go. if he has more to teach you, he'll end up coming back. when you feel like talking to him, look up a new word that describes him in an asshole-ish manner. keep a list"
"my friends all say that i should stop talking to him, but i think he misses me, and i like that. i miss him. i feel if i stay in touch with him, it will remind me of how great i am, and eventually he will realize that we should be together again" -he's just not that into you
some things can't and shouldn't be fixed, especially broken relationships. it's over for a reason. deep down inside, you probably know what that reason is. a lot of the pain you're experiencing is actually fear- fear of things being different, fear of never finding love again, fear of being alone, fear of falling for someone again, and getting hurt again. we are all afraid of the unknown. the unknown can be a scary thing, and sometimes it will cause you more pain, but other times, the unknown will turn out to be better than you could've ever imagined. you've just got to give it a chance
i made a lot of mistakes before i got to you, each one honest and none that i regret. the same way a tree bends in the wind, twists and turns, before it can touch the sky
"you have to learn the rules of the game. and then you have to play the game better than anyone else" -albert einstein
there were reasons we met, reasons for the good times and reasons for the bad times, and most importantly, reasons for ending
people say "forgive and forget." the truth? if someone is worth forgiving, you will always remember them
"thomas edison's last words were 'it's very beautiful over there.' i don't know where there is, but i believe it's somewhere, and i hope it's beautiful"
"to love at all is to be vulnerable. love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. if you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one. wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. but in that casket- safe, dark, motionless, airless- it will change. it will not be broke; it will become unbreakable, inpenetrable, irredeemable" -c.s. lewis
"i wonder if anyone is really happy. i hope they are. i really really hope they are" -the perks of being a wallflower
How the hell did you ever pick me? Honestly, I could sing you a song but I don't think words can express your beauty. It's singing to me. How the hell did we end up like this? You bring out the beast in me. I fell in love from the moment we kissed, since then we've been history.
We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers,
heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time,
& heard poets urging us to seize the day. Still sometimes,
we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own
mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have
to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until
we can't anymore. Until we finally understand for ourselves.
You can tell a lot about a person's
character by what they smile about
You know people often have a favorite song of the
moment or the song of the week? They like one song
& listen to it all the time till they get bored & tired
of it, or if they hear a better song with a better beat. Well,
I don't want to be one of those 'favorite songs of the
moment'. I want to be the lyrics stuck in your head
& the first time you heard it, the words & melody
struck you like lightning. I want to be the song in your
head & forever in your heart.
It's funny how you go through the year & nothing
seems to change. But when you look back, everything is different.
& ultimately, he's going to find out: how you
chew, how you sip, how you hum, how you dance,
how you smell at every point in the day. The fact that
most of your friends are shallow. That you hate
sitting in an aisle seat, how you sometimes can't
seem to listen, how you get hyper when you travel,
how certain games or shows make you really happy,
how you get cranky because you're too stupid to
remember to sleep, how you don't like the way you look
in most of your pictures, how you can't get off the
phone when it's late, because you don't want to sound
like you care, how you have no ability to save receipts.
He's going to know all of it; everything about you,
he's going to know. & he's still going to love you.
Life isn't a destination, it's a journey. We all come upon
unexpected curves & turning points. Everything that
happens to us shapes who we are becoming. & in the
adventure of each day, we discover the important things
in life & why they're important.
Take nothing but photos, leave nothing but
footprints, and kill nothing but time.
I've learned that no matter how much I care, some
people are just assholes. I've learned that it takes
years to build up trust, & it only takes suspicion,
not proof, to destroy it. I've learned that you shouldn't
compare yourself to others; they are more screwed up
than you think. I've learned that the people you care
most about in life are taken from you too soon, &
all the less important ones just never go away.
So lets lie in the grass & stare at the stars, live
in the moment & try to figure out who we are.
If there's just one piece of advice I can give you,
it's this: when there's something you really want,
fight for it. Don't give up. No matter how hopeless
it seems. & when you've lost hope, ask yourself if
ten years from now, you're going to wish you gave
it one more shot, because the best things in life,
they don't come free.
I like when we sit next to each other & your leg fits
perfectly against mine. I like when our feet bump &
we don't apologize. I like this closeness. I like this comfort.
I like you.
It's up to you to determine who you let walk away,
who you let stay, & who you refuse to let go of altogether. | | |
| Got grades.
A, A-, B, B, C+
Not the best at all, but considering I thought I was going to fail (or get a D) in philosophy and got out with a C+.. I am veryyy happy.
Gpa = 3.05
First time over 3.0 in college woot!
Raised every semester.. gonna keep going.
More important issue..
Uncle Larry in hospital after reallyyy bad car accident.
He just got out of a drug induced coma today.
Probably be in the hospital for another month or so :/
Aunt Sisi had hip surgery today.
Went well, but she's gonna be down for a while.
Grandma..
Doesn't have much time left.
Take it day by day, minute by minute.
We usually go there for Christmas,
But she is in a bed, incoherent and just lifeless...
I've already done my grieving.
My Grandma left a while ago.
Her body is just a little behind...
But I don't even know how I'm going to react.
I've never lost someone close to me.. :/
I was caught somewhere between a woman and a child.
One restless summer we found love growing wild <3
-->Strawberry Wine by Deanna Carter (it always gets to me..)
P.S. New Years resolution: Be a vegetarian for 30 days. Idk if I'm going to start Jan 1st or when I get to school because it's going to be hard to do it at home whereas at school I shop for my own food. I'll figure it out when time comes. But if it goes good I might stick with it... doing research really opens your eyes!
MerryChristmas&HappyHolidays;;
i want to be in love. but i'm afraid it won't solve all my problems like i want it to.
i'm terrified of not existing.
You were a liar, but you were the best.
I looked at him, and he looked at me,
and for that split second it was like
we forgave each other for everything.
Do you think the reason we fight so
much is because we can't face the
fact that we might still be in love?
I've dialed your number, half a thousand
times. Hoping just to hear your voice on the
other line. I never had the courage to finally
make that call. I've been missing you so
much, have you been missing me at all?
There's a difference between goodbye & letting
go. Goodbye is "I'll see you again when I'm ready
to hold your hand, & when you're ready to hold
mine." Letting go is "I'll miss your hand. I realized
it's not mine to hold, & I will never hold it again."
You can't buy happiness,
but you can buy ice cream,
& that's close enough
It feels like someone kicked you in the stomach, feels like your heart stopped beating, feels like that dream you know the one when you are falling and you want so desperately to wake up before you hit the ground but its all out of your control, you cant trust anything anymore, no one is who they say they are, your life is changed forever, and the only thing to come out of the whole ugly experience is no one will be able to break your heart like that again.
its hard losing something
but its even harder to learn that you
cant lose what you never had
Some fairy tales are true, most of them are stories we make up to help us deal with real life; it all depends on your point of view, but here are the facts... there was once a princess, who lived in a castle, high above the streets of an enchanted kingdom. The king and queen were long gone but they left her with a treasure: that she would stay a princess forever.
-Uptown Girls
Mr. Leezak: Some days your mother and me loved each other. Other days we had to work at it. You never see the hard days in a photo album, but those are the ones that get you from one happy snapshot to the next. I'm sorry your honeymoon stunk but that's what you got dealt. Now you gotta work through it. Sarah doesn't need a guy with a fat wallet to make her happy. I saw how you love this girl. How you two lit each other up. She doesn't need anymore security than that.
-Just Married
"Every story has an end. But in life, every ending is just a new beginning." -Uptown Girls
"I don't consider myself very wild at all. I'm far more of a homebody. Once or twice a year I'll go to a club with a pack of girlfriends just to dance. I think when you get a high off life, off music, off people, you don't need to partake in things that are unhealthy for your body to have a great time. I think living in the now and savoring every moment is obscenely important."
-Brittany Murphy♥
Last Christmas I gave you my heart, but the very next day, you gave it away. This year to save me from tears, I'll give it to someone special.
My God, I thought you were someone to rely on. Me, I guess I'm just a shoulder to cry on. A face of a lover with a fire in his heart. A girl undercover but you tore her apart.
I've been doing fine without you, really. Up until the nights got cold and everybody's here, except you, baby. Seems like everyone's got someone to hold.
Would you still wanna kiss without misletoe? What would happen if God never let it snow. What would happen if Christmas carols told a lie, tell me what would you find.... You'd see that today holds something special, something holy not superficial. So here's to the birthday boy who saved our lives. It's something we all try to ignore and put a wreath up on your door, so here's something you should know that is for sure; Christmas must be something more.
There's nothing sadder in the world than to awake Christmas morning and not be a child.
Christmas gift suggestions: To your enemy, forgiveness. To an opponent, tolerance. To a friend, your heart. To all, charity. To every child, a good example. To yoursef, respect.
One of the most glorious messes in the world is the mess created in the living room on Christmas day. Don't clean it up too quickly.
Never worry about the size of your Christmas tree. In the eyes of children, they are all 30 feet tall.
Don't think. Don't fucking think. Because when you think you realize just how fucked up everything really is. You realize you don't know how you get where you are. You don't know where you're going and you don't know what to do anymore.
To live a creative life, we must lose our fear of being wrong.
And that’s when you realize
hes the boy your crazy for
the one that makes you laugh
on the worst days.
hes not perfect, but neither are you
sometimes hes dorky,but hes your dork
he kisses you in the rain and dances
with no music even though
he knows it cliché
he made you realize it is possible
to have permanent butterflies
every love song makes sense because of him,
because he loves you, and you love him.
The man who really loves a girl
is the man who knows that
he can make the girl cry,
but will never ever try.
I like this boy and just when I
think there is no way he likes me,
I catch him staring at me with a
smile on his face and it makes me wonder.
Someday you're going to find
someone who drives you mad,
who you're going to fight with and laugh with.
Someone who you'll do insane things for.
Someone who is going to turn your life upside down.
If a person is single, it doesn't
really mean that he/she knows nothing
about love. In fact, going solo is a lot
wiser than being in a wrong relationship.
Don't feel stupid for missing him; even if
he treated you like shit. You still had happy
memories, & you're always going to miss them
don't try to replace him- because you won't.
Just get through each day, & eventually it'll
get better. I promise. Eventually someone
will come into your life, & whether or not
you realize it, they're going to be something
special to you. So don't throw yourself at
every guy you see, trying to replace him,
or at least the dull memories because you're
only going to make yourself see how hard
he is to replace. Someone better will
eventually come along.
I remember when all the games began.
remember every little lie, and every last
goodbye. the promises you broke, words
you choked on, and I never walked away.
It's still a mystery to me
If she's amazing, she won't be easy.
If she's easy, she won't be amazing.
If she's worth it, you won't give up.
If you give up, you're not worthy.
It's so hard to accept the fact you're
gone forever. I never knew I could hurt like
this, and everyday life rolls on like this. I wish
I could talk to you for awhile. I wish I could
find a way to try not to cry, as time goes by.
The hardest thing to do is say goodbye.
I'm mad at myself, not you.
I'm mad for always being nice.
I'm mad for always apologizing
for things I didn't do. I'm mad for
getting attached. I'm mad for
depending on you and wasting my
time on you. I'm mad for thinking
about you, and most of all for not
hating you when I should.
i hate how we never got our chance
to see what we could`ve been. i hate
how i know i`m not over you and
how i pretend to be.
i have no right to put up these walls, right? but i
have seen my friends cry for months over boys
who they gave their hearts to. i`ve seen boys
promise 'forever' only to watch forever end a
few months later, when they find someone better
to sleep with. i`ve been the shoulder to cry on.
i`ve seen the strongest people in the world
become weak for love. and i refuse to be that girl.
i will never fall in love.
you only find a few people in this world,
a few people who will tell you they love
you and mean it with all of their heart.
don't forget those people who stood by
you through it all. those special few that
were there for you until the end.
what you say and how you look does
not define who you are, because some
of the most beautiful people do the
ugliest things. you owe it to the people
who hate you, who disrespect you and
who put you down, because they are
the ones who have made you who you
are today; for keeping your head up and
not breaking down when you want to.
At least three weeks of bottled up tears
came pouring out last night. My head
pounded & my eyes hurt. It wasn`t like I
needed to cry for three weeks; I have
actually been happy for awhile, but
everything just built up too high & caused
me to crash again - just when I was
starting to do so good.
time is ticking away.
yes, you're young. but the years fly.
and soon, you'll be wondering what
would have happened if you would have
spoken what was inside your heart.
Expecting life to treat you well just
because you're a good person is like
expecting an angry bull not to charge
you because you're a vegetarian.
Life's problems wouldn't be called "hurdles"
if there wasn't a way to get over them.
Everyone, at some point in their lives, wakes up in the middle of the night with the feeling that they are all alone in the world, and that nobody loves them now and that nobody will ever love them, and that they will never have a decent night’s sleep again and will spend their lives wandering blearily around a loveless landscape, hoping desperately that their circumstances will improve, but suspecting, in their heart of hearts, that they will remain unloved forever. The best thing to do in these circumstances is to turn on your favorite love song & fall asleep imagining it being sung just for you.
I wish that my head was my own notebook. I wish every single one of my thoughts were written down. Okay, it doesn't have to be a notebook. It can be an air sick bag for all I care. I am this person inside my head I could only dream to be. She's so open, so alive, she's so thoughtful and she is brilliant. She dreams of things I cant imagine on seeing. She sees colors, not words or people. She sees rainbows of colors. She is life. She breathes flowers and exhales master pieces of art. Her heart is full of love and compassion. I could only imagine what she is capable of. People would probably hate her if she was real. They’d probably find some reason to hate her. And they’d probably tear her, from limb to limb. They’d make her cry, just to watch her mascara run. But, I bet even then, make up smeared, eyes red and puffy, I bet even then she's still beautiful.
Be thankful for every heartbreak, for they come into your life to reveal another layer
of yourself to you, and then leave.
their purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your
ego a little bit…
break your heart open so new light can get in,
make you so desperate and out of control that
you have to transform your life. And you do.<3 | | |
| I'm living my own life now.
Cutting the ties, obligations and responsibilities of the past.
Such a weight has lifted by just typing this..
..I can't wait until I feel fully content about my life and where I'm going..
www.mylifeisg.com
an amazing site <3<3
SmileItsANewDay;;
If you're looking for reasons not to
love someone, you're probably going to
find them, but sometimes we need to
give in & let our hearts get what they deserve.
- One Tree Hill
You can't buy happiness,
but you can buy ice cream,
& that's close enough :)
Lets unwrite these pages &
replace them with our own words;
If love is a labor, I'll slave til the end.
- Rise Against
Desidero Essere Il Vostro Tutto.
(I Want To Be Your Everything)
& when you're feeling lonely, look up at the moon.
Somewhere, someone is staring at the same moon, feeling lonely, too.
Those nights when you can't sleep, it might be
because you're awake in someone else's dreams.
Don't stop dreaming because there is
nothing wrong in wanting something more.
I can see myself waking up next to you.
Your face being the first thing I see everyday,
with your bed-head hair & that sleepy smile.
All you could do was take on as much weight as you can bear,
and if you're lucky, there's someone close enough to shoulder the rest.
Flirting is a habit for those who are single,
it's their way of saying "I'm free."
But, for those who are committed,
it's their way of saying I'm bored.
I'm not interested in perserving the status quo,
I want to overthrow it.
You have to think before you speak.
Men aren't like us.
They're much more fragile and needy.
The fact they think we're the needy one is a testament
to our superiority.
Life is just one big game. It's ups, it's downs,
it's rights, and wrongs. The true and fake;
it's just one big game of love and hate.
All the best love stories have one thing in common:
they need to go against all odds to get there.
The only way to find true happiness,
is to risk being completely cut open.
I wanted you to fight for me.
I wanted you to say that there was no one else that you
could ever be with,
that you'd rather be alone than be without me.
One of the hardest parts in life is deciding whether to walk away,
or try harder.
The worst mistake anyone can make,
is being too afraid to make one.
Find a heart that loves you at your worst,
and arms that will hold you at your weakest.
All the adversity I've had in my life, all my troubles and obstacles,
have strengthened me.
You may not realize it when it happens,
but a kick in the teeth may be the best thing in the world for you.
Any idiot can face a crisis -
it's day to day living that wears you out.
'Cause the heart that betrays itself willingly,
is like a nation that trades freedom for stability.
Numbing the pain for a while will make it worse
for when you actually feel it.
The hardest part is waking up in the morning remembering
what you had been trying so hard to forget last night.
I just don't know if I wanna do it anymore,
get close to somebody so they can leave again.
The most important things are the hardest things to say,
they are the things you get ashamed of because
words diminish your feelings.
Hitting walls and getting scars only makes you who you are,
no matter how much your heart is aching,
there is beauty in the breaking.
Damaged people are dangerous,
because they know they can survive.
You only fall in love once.
Everything before that is just to make sure
that your heart can handle it.
Fiction reveals truth
that reality obscures.
I believe in imagination.
What I cannot see is infinitley more important
than what I can see. | | |
| I don't care what people say, I love Paramore with all my heart <3
Hayley Williams is thee shit.
"Maybe then we could remember to slow down at all of our favorite parts.."
"We all learn to make mistakes and run from them with no direction"
"but you are the only exception" <3
Say you'll trip me
I promise I'll fall.
FakeGingersRule!;;
Be happy for this moment; this moment in your life
When nothing at all is perfect, but everything feels right.
Beauty is not showing skin & selling it;
it's the natural figure of one's flaws whose
not afraid to be underweight or overweight
but knows that there is more than just looks.
You don't have to force your smile for everyone else;
it's okay to just smile for yourself.
You know it's meant to be when
even the times you can't stand him,
he's the only person on your mind.
We fight mainly for one reason. Cause when
you fight you truly find out how much you're
willing to take before you break. & when you
break you need to see if that other person truly
cares enough to make everything okay again cause
without fighting, liars of love could be walking all over the place.
If you're not happy with the person you're with,
Don't stay with them.
You're not magically going to wake up one morning
and decide you're going to be happy again.
Someone makes you that way.
Find the someone that makes you happy.
Kiss me in the dark,
tell me you love me in the moonlight,
& spend hours on end making memories
with me under the stars <3
I love you.
I love you not because you're adorable or because you're sweet
or because you're more than my best friend.
I love you because you make me step outside myself
& look at who I really am.
You make me want to be a better person,
just because of how you are with me.
We fell in love with the windows rolled down
chasing the sunset through another empty town.
I mean, you were right.
I got into this for all the wrong reasons.
But I lucked out cause now that I`m here,
I can`t imagine being anywhere else.
I dare you to be who you want to be.
Best friends are reason we have empty fridges,
dirty rooms, inside jokes, extreme makeovers,
true personalities & friendship.
We tend to fall in love the same way we get sick;
without wanting to, without believing it,
against our will & unable to defend ourselves.
After all the stupid mistakes that you've made,
& after all of those flaws that you have, I've
noticed that none of it matters because I truly
love you & once you love someone, it doesn't
really matter what they will become in this world.
So whatever you do in life, I will always love you. <3
I guess what scares me the most is knowing
that at any moment, you could rip my heart
out of my chest, tear it in pieces, throw it
on the ground, then stomp all over it.. &
I'd just pick it up, & hand it back to you.
Love is such a strong word. When we were
just little kids, we always thought love was just
about hugs, kisses, & happiness. But as we grow,
we learn that it's not just about happiness, it's also
about learning to accept rejections, tears, & heartbreaks.
That's where I come to help you up, wipe those
tears away, put your heart back to one when you're
hurt from love. & when I say, "I love you" you'd better
believe that I mean that with every fiber of my being.
Relationships are worth fighting for,
but not if you're the only one fighting.
Sometimes we just need to get out,
get away & momentarily forget everything
in order to realize that what we have
really isn't all that bad.
You make me want to sing out loud;
I don't care who listens anymore.
Loud & so off key, I will sing my song
& you will be the lyrics to my heart.
A good friend says,
"If you ever need anything, I'll be there."
but a best friend says,
"You'll never need anything; I'll be there."
As long as it's you saying it, it doesn't matter
how slowly you say it; I'll still listen. If you can't
talk over the phone, then I'll come to see you,
just like this. If you want to walk, no matter
how slow or far it'll be, I'll walk with you.
Music is a expression of emotions. It makes us
feel multiple ways, like the ocean, calm & steady,
or furious & deadly. But it's all about choosing
what's right for you, because your life is what you
put your emotions into; don't let it ruin you, just go
with the flow & probably next thing you know, you
find the special thing you're looking for.
You will learn how to help yourself.
It will break your heart, & it will make you strong.
+ PostSecret
I know a lot of people know who he is, but I also know there are not that many who got to see the side of the guy that I did. And that guy, well, I'll never forget him. Not ever. I've learned so much about life and emotion from knowing him and I wouldn't change a thing about it. Including the ending. Your heart needs to go
through some bumps like these once in a while. Besides, he has made a monumental impact on me and on my life in these past few years. I know no matter how many years go by, my
stomach will always do a little flip whenever I see that face.
"Experience. Dream. Risk. Close your eyes and jump. Enjoy the freefall. Choose exhilaration over comfort. Choose magic over predictability. Choose potential over safety. Wake up to the magic of everyday life. Make friends with your intuition. Trust your gut. Discover the beauty of uncertainty. Know yourself fully before you make promises to another. Make millions of mistakes so that you will know how to choose what you really need. Know when to hold on and when to let go. Love hard and often and without reservation. Seek knowledge. Open yourself to possibility. Keep your heart open, your head high and your spirit free. Embrace your darkness along with your light. Be wrong every once in a while, and don't be afraid to admit it. Awaken to the brilliance in ordinary moments. Tell the truth about yourself no matter what the cost. Own your reality without apology. See goodness in the world. Be Bold. Be Fierce. Be Grateful. Be Wild, Crazy and Gloriously Free. Be You.
Go now, and live."
-Jeanette LeBlanc
Here's to the nights when the sand is your
seat, the waves kiss your feet, your friends
outnumber the stars, & even the chilliest of
nights are warmer then the cold one in your hand.
Your eyes are my passion, your voice is my
addiction, your touch is what I long for. &
with every glance you shoot towards me,
I feel my knees get weak. but I can't help it.
Your worst battle is between
what you know & what you feel.
& all she really wants is someone who will sit
with her under the stars & not want anything
more but to look into her eyes & say you're
the only one I’ve been waiting for.
Some things don't last forever, but some things do.
Like a good song, or a good book, or a good memory
you can take out & unfold in your darkest times,
pressing down the corners & peering close,
hoping you still recognize the person you see there.
No relationship is perfect, ever. There are some ways
you have to bend, to compromise, to give something in
order to gain something greater. But the love we have
for each other is bigger than those small differences. &
that's the key. It's like a big pie chart, & the love in a
relationship has to be the biggest piece. Love can make up for a lot.
Men hate to cry, they rarely ever do.
But when a man cries over you, you know
he loves you. Because men only cry when
they lost something or are afraid of losing
something that they love as much or
more than themselves.
All I know is that you make me happier
than I thought I could ever be, & if you let me,
I'll spend the rest of my life trying to make you feel the same.
+ Friends
When he left, he left you shattered,
in a million little pieces; most of them scratched,
too. And now, you're like a really tricky puzzle.
Not the kind a grandpa and mom and little sisters and aunts
would stay up doing late on Christmas night working on,
drinking cocoa together until it was done,
but the hard kind. The kind that you’d only find
at a thrift store, with just so many pieces,
many of which might even be lost,
that it makes one wonder if it would even
be worth it to attempt it at all.
The ones who have given you a shot
have all given up almost instantly:
why work so hard on this particular puzzle,
they thought, when they knew they could simply
(and quickly) find a much easier puzzle to do?
But it’s okay - because you know someday, someone
will come along - maybe you'll meet at the grocery store
by the frozen veggies, or while you're on a
trip in his hometown, and totally lost. He probably won't
look like what you expected, but he'll be beautiful
nonetheless, and he'll have a beautiful heart.
This one will see the damage done;
not in a way a mechanic sees an old broken vehicle,
eager to "fix 'er up", more for his own amusement and
satisfaction and pride than anything else, but like the way
you see vintage Chanel jewelry; the scratches
making it even more exquisite and delicate
and beautiful, and captivated by it's very presence;
Or an orphaned kitten, that you want to hug,
just to let her know she's loved and give her a home
and feed her and protect her.
That feeling times ten thousand.
This guy will see something special that keeps him with
you all along, even when it gets tough; maybe it’ll be
your scent, or your laugh, or the way you hug;
or maybe he’ll get hooked on you because of how you eat,
licking kit-kats away by layer, and your fetish with
parmasean cheese; or maybe it’ll be the way you sleep,
curled up in a ball with blankets pulled up to your face,
even if everyone else in the world is dying of heat
and its 100 degrees. Or maybe it’ll even be
some combination of these things.
Whatever it is, he’ll love it (among a million other things
about you) because it makes you you, and unique.
This guy will never wonder whether you're worth
it (he’ll know) and he won’t even see it
as an option to give up. He'll search for each
and every missing piece, and when he realizes
one or two might be truly unable to get back,
he will patch it up himself; like giving a new button
eye to a one-eyed teddy bear.
And when he's finished and your heart is whole
again, he will take out his glue gun
and secure it together on a chunk of plywood
so that every piece will forever stay in place. ♥
by ifweloved_quotes
"Life is divine chaos. Embrace it. Forgive yourself. Breathe. And enjoy the ride." -Solbeam
"If the world is cold, make it your business to build fires." -Horace Traubel ♥
“A part of me will always love you.
But it’s okay, because I let you go a long time ago.
I hope you’ll have a great life.
I know I will. ♥”
When someone says his name, & your eyes sparkle.
When he makes you smile, & your smile shines.
When he's all you think about,
& you just can't think of anyone better.
That's love.
I want to meet good people with good intensions,
the open-minded, the optimistic, the people that make an effort.
I want to meet a guy that I can learn from, someone that
I can have fun with, someone interesting, & the kind
of guy that I can depend on. I want to meet a guy that will
actually appreciate me as a friend. A guy that will be my best friend.
Don't love me if you're not willing to risk it all.
Sometimes it's hard to see the light at the end of
the tunnel; sometimes you can't even see the tunnel,
let alone the light. But I promise you, if you just keep
walking, you'll see the tunnel, & maybe even the light.
She said that she wanted to get high; he took her to
the tallest hill in town. She said that she wanted to
stay up all night & drink; he gave her a 12-pack of
caffeinated Pepsi & said, "Drink up." She said that
she wanted to shoot herself in the face; he gave her a
water gun, put her finger on the trigger, aimed it at
her face, & helped her pull the trigger. She said that
she wanted to cut herself; he took a Polaroid of her,
handed it to her along with scissors, & had her cut
it up. She said that she wanted to see her blood; he
took her to get her ears pierced. She said that she
wanted to cry herself to sleep; he had her watch a
sad, romantic movie before bed. She said that she
wanted to be alone; he gave her a name tag that said,
"My Name Is: Alone." She said that she wanted to
have someone there to take care of her, always;
he asked when he wasn't
I was born in the arms of imaginary friends
Free to roam, made a home out of everywhere I've been
One day we can complete all the things on our to-do list, like spend an entire day in bed together. One day when a new movies is about to hit the theaters, we can watch it the day it comes out. One day whenever you want to go somewhere, I can go with you if you like. One day when you get invited to a party or something, no worries, I can be your date. One day when you’re feeling hungry, I’ll be able to eat food with you. One day whenever you need me, I’ll be right on my way. One day we can just drive & go anywhere we want to. One day I’ll be able to kiss & hug you without worrying about our time being so limited
I want to go back to believing in everything and knowing nothing at all.
I’m not the silly romantic you think. I don’t want the heavens or the shooting stars. I don’t want gemstones or gold. I have those things already. I want a steady hand. A kind soul. I want to fall asleep, and wake, knowing my heart is safe
Girls do not dress for boys. They dress for themselves,
and of course, eachother. If girls dressed for boys,
they'd just walk around naked at all times- BETSEY JOHNSON
“I’m crazy about you and I want you to know that if I had the choice of hanging out with anyone in the entire world or just sitting at home with you eating a pizza and watching a crappy TV show… I’d choose you every time.”
- Scrubs
Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life. It turns what we have into enough, and more. It turns denial into acceptance, chaos to order, confusion to clarity. It can turn a meal into a feast, a house into a home, a stranger into a friend. Gratitude makes sense of our past, brings peace for today, and creates a vision for tomorrow.
-- Melody Beattie
If you concentrate on finding whatever is good in every situation, you will discover that your life will suddenly be filled with gratitude, a feeling that nurtures the soul.
-- Rabbi Harold Kushner
"There is always, always, always something to be thankful for." | | |
| Last night was one of the worst nights ever.
Stayed at my grandparents and Grandma was in pain the ENTIRE night.
Her med patch (some really strong pain drug) wasn't working and she refused to take a morphine pill.
Ambulance came and took her this morning.
She's staying the night..
She doesn't have that much longer..
About 2am last night
Grandpa walked into Grandma's room..
This broke my heart;;
((Gma moaning with pain))
Gpa "Mom, let me help you"
Gma "You don't want to help me, you can't help me"
People say they are jealous of the way I live my life
How I don't need a boy to make me happy
How I'm not scared to be all alone
Truth is I'm jealous of every hand-holding couple I see
Every morning I put on my shoes and tape on a smile
And my biggest fear of all is dying alone.
ThisIsGrowingUpIGuess;;
If life is full of questions,
are we living to find the answers?
Friendship isn't being inseperable, it's being
seperated & knowing nothing will change.
There's nothing more valuable
than having someone in your life
that reminds you of who you are.
I get to make my own decisions, have my own life,
do whatever I choose. & here's the good part..
what I choose is you. You're what I want to wake up
to, & go to bed with & do everything else in
between.
It's those moments when you drive around in a
car full of friends; around a town too small for you,
where you gasp for breath between each laugh
You want everything to stay the same, until
you're ready for it to change. But you can't
do that. You can't expect the whole world
to stand still until you're ready.
Life can be pretty exciting when
you have something worth living for.
Life's too short
to wake up in the morning with regrets,
so love the people who treat you right,
forget about the ones who don't,
believe that everything happens for a reason,
and if you get a chance, take it,
if it changes your life, then let it;
nobody said it'd be easy,
they just promised that it would be worth it.
I’m afraid because you are the most
important being to ever grace my existence.
++ A Walk to Remember *
Love means loving someone even
when you don't feel like liking them that day.
It's the magic of risking everything
for a dream that nobody sees but you.
theres only so many times a girl can be dissapointed before she gives up trying. only so many times a girl can get her heart broken before she gives up loving. only so many times a girl can get hurt before she starts crying
The most memorable people in your life will be the people who loved you when you weren`t very lovable.
Our world would be happier if we gave people a little bit of our hearts rather than a piece of our minds.
At the end of the day,
you either focus on what's tearing you apart,
or what's holding you together.
I'll sit and laugh with my friends at what we've all been through,
but I still catch my breath when someone mentions you.
Sometimes the only thing that people see is what you did. When in fact, they should be looking at why you did it.
Why do we miss a person? It's either because we realize that we never treasured the moments when they were always there and it left us wishing we could turn back time again. Or we were too happy with them, we enjoyed every single moment, that we became so used to the idea of having them around.
Things will happen in your life that you can't stop. but that's no reason to shut out the world.
Sooner or later, you'll realize that even your best friends aren't really there for you. You realize that you're alone in this world and no matter how much you cry, or how much you pray, only you can help yourself
please believe me when I say i miss you.
and how i miss our talks, and our ever lasting conversations about the future.
please belive me when I say that I understand.
people change, and they move on.
you'll realize they never needed you, all along
There were reasons we met, reasons for the good times and reasons for the bad times, and most importantly, reasons to end.
We have more to learn, more to experience and more loving to do in this lifetime.
I never thought I’d hear myself saying this, but thank you. Because if you hadn’t of come along, I never would have learned that my worst day could also have been my best. Because when a heart breaks, it also opens; and once a heart opens any number of things can happen, and some of them can be wonderful.
"I am going to give you a piece of advice...advice I wish I'd been told
in guidance class back in high school, in between the don't-do-acid and
don't-drink-and-drive films. I wish our counselors had told us, 'When
you grow older a dreadful, horrible sensation will come over you. It's
called loneliness, and you think you know what it is now, but you don't.
Here is the list of the symptoms, and don't worry—loneliness is the
most universal sensation on the planet. Just remember one fact—
loneliness will pass. You will survive and you will be a better human
for it."
"Time ticks by; we grow older. Before we know it, too much
time has passed and we've missed the chance to have had other
people hurt us. To a younger me this sounded like luck; to an
older me this sounds like a quiet tragedy."
Our task now is not to fix the blame for the past, but to fix the course for the future.
--John F. Kennedy
Good judgment comes from experience,
& experience comes from bad judgment.
--Barry LePatner
No matter what, once in your life someone will hurt you.
That someone will take all that you are and rip it into pieces
and they won't even watch the pieces land. But through the
breakdown, you'll learn something about yourself. You'll learn
that you're strong, and no matter how hard they try to destroy you,
that you can conquer anyone.
i needed someone, no one was there
i asked for help, and no one answered
i begged for forgiveness, no one cared
i screamed for attention, no one noticed
i cried for you, no one dried my tears..
"i sold what i could and packed what i couldn't, stopped to fill up on my way out of town. i've loved like i should but lived like i shouldn't. i had to lose everything to find out. maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road, but i'm movin' on."
It was cold. Your hands were shaking, and I stepped in front of you just to wrap my arms around you as I said, "Let's pretend winter isn't here." As you buried your head in my shoulder, you said,
"Let's pretend the snow isn't the only thing falling fast."
{(fav winter quote)}
Wait for the nights that compliment you.
Ignore the girls that just resent you.
It's easier to pretend you don't care at all.
Now wait for it.
Wait for boys that overwhelm you
and tell them that you're not that type of girl
and you would rather sit and talk about your goals.
People don't keep journals for themselves.
They keep them for other people,
like a secret they don't want to tell,
but they want everyone to know.
"I do have an affinity for damaged people, in life, in roles. I don't know why. We're all damaged in our own way.
Nobody's perfect. I think we are all somewhat screwy, every single one of us."
--Johnny Depp
Every girl needs a best friend to help
her laugh, when she thinks she'll never smile again
The hardest thing to give is the truth.
The truth is awkward, and, very often,
the truth hurts. People think they
want the truth,but do they really?
No matter what anybody tells you,
words and ideas can change the world.
--Dead Poet's Society
Basic rule number one:
never rely on the guy.
--Beverly Hills 9o21o
On the outside, I was what every
well-brought up girl should be.
Inside, I was screaming
--Titanic
A day without a friend is like a pot
of honey without a single drop in it.
--Winnie The Pooh
Success is a ladder you can not
climb with your hands in your pockets.
--American Proverb
i wish everyone didn't have such
high expectations of me...
because it's bad enough i let myself down...
i don't need to let everyone else down too
Together forever, it was the kind of promise
children made to each other, he thought.
Before they knew anything about a
world that could tear them apart.
Sometimes you need a breakdown.
One of those yell at everyone,
cry until you fall, and can’t breathe
kind of breakdowns. then you feel better.
And if you don’t, then at least people
know you’re not okay.
If you don't go through the hard times,
you don't appreciate how good you really have it.
Don't worry about falling in love,
in fairytales they don't fall in love until the last page.
Chances are like lightning,
they never hit the earth at the same spot twice.
So when a chance comes your way,
grab it cause it may never come again.
Your first love. You know who I'm talking about,
because I bet you read the words, "first love,"
and that one boy just came to mind. There's
nothing like that first boy you were afraid to love.
That one boy you knew it was love, despite what
others said. That one boy who changed your
expectations and that one boy who you compare
all the future boys with. Because deep down inside,
you knew he was the one.
The one who set the standards for love.
We spend our whole lives telling ourselves that
everything happens for a reason when in reality,
it's just that we give reasons for everything that happens
Seeing him was like hearing an old song
come on the radio; bringing up so many
old feelings and memories that you can't tune out
And I get how rock can beat scissors, but there's no way paper can beat rock. How can paper leave a rock immobile? Why can't paper do this to scissors? Forget scissors, why can't paper do this to people? Why aren't sheets of college ruled notebook paper constantly suffocating students as they attempt to take notes in class? I'll tell you why. Because paper can't beat anybody. A rock would tear that paper up in about two seconds. When I play Rock, Paper, Scissors, I always choose rock. Then when somebody claims they have beaten me with their paper, I punch them in the face with my already clenched fist and say, "Oh, I'm sorry, I thought paper would protect you."
I like to take naps,
because when you wake up,
you forget all the crap,
going wrong in your life,
for a whole ten seconds.
She laid her heart and soul right in
your hands, and you stole her every
dream, you crushed her plans.
She never even knew she had a choice,
& that's what happens when the
only voice she hears is tellin' her she can't.
You stupid boy.
-Stupid Boy; Keith Urban
its the worst feeling;
telling someone i love you more
and knowing that it's probably true
What's different about us is that we're friends. Well, maybe we're not just friends. But the base of all we know is friendship. He may think I'm beautiful, but he'll still tease me about how he has to look down to see me. And we may cuddle up and watch movies, but we'll still laugh and make jokes about every line. We may hold hands, but we also get into fake fights that I know he lets me win every time. He gets mad when I don't think highly of myself, and I get mad when he won't tell me what's wrong. We know more about each other than anyone. And maybe that's the thing that makes it so perfect, that he's not just the friend or the lover, but he's the missing piece to my puzzle.
It seems like the simplest concept.
Just push everyone away, & you'll never get hurt.
However, the simplest isn't always the most effective.
They say people come and go.
But the truth is, no one really disappears from your life.
People never really leave, their roles just change.
You know he's something special
when no matter what kind of mood you're
in, he can always manage to make you smile
A guy can make you think he loves you,
but he really doesn't.
And a girl can make you think she doesn't love you,
when she really does.
if anyone asks ill tell them we both just moved on,
when people all stare ill pretend i don't hear them talk.
whenever i see you ill swallow my pride and bite my tounge,
pretend im okay with it all, act like there's nothing wrong.
I've been waiting my whole life
for the right guy to come along,
and then you showed up and you're
nothing like the man I imagined.
You're cynical and cranky and
impossible. But the truth is fighting
with you is the best thing that's
ever happened to me and I think
there's a very good chance I'm
falling in love with you.
love with all your heart. give with all your soul. hold on as tight as you can & just never let go.
I am not saying that I am in love,
I am just saying that lately he's all I think about.
So i laid my head on to my pillow as the last tear ran down my face.
i can't do this anymore, i whispered to no one.
And you know what? I realized something last night.
It's not that I want you to hold my hand, I just
want you to reach for it.
Loneliness doesn't kill. It aches, and it taunts,
but it doesn't kill you. Sometimes, I wish it did
I keep all these things bottled up inside me because
I'm afraid no one will care, no one will
listen, no one will understand
Behind every "I'm fine" is a mind full of
confusion trying to find a way out.
"That's the problem with us. We're both
stubborn asses and always want to get
our way. We both hate to be wrong and love
to be right. But that's the thing about love. No
matter what happens, we always come
back for each other, one more time. "
"What do you really want?" I asked him impatiently.
"You, I want you," he replied. I wasn't buying it. I turned to walk away, when he stopped me. "I want that part of you that gets excited when you hear the ice cream truck. The part that cries when old people die in movies. The part that cares much more than what she wears. The part where she can totally be herself. The part that when I look at her, I only see her. The part where she could never give up a stuffed animal, cause she’ll feel bad for it. The part where she wants me, too. That’s what I really want.”
Just once I want someone to look at me
& right away think I'm beautiful;;
not after they get to know me,
Or after they see inside my soul - just me.
I want to walk into a room & light it up
perfect would be cuddled up on the couch,
watching disney movies, & you telling me
that you'll always be my prince charming
We all have that boy; he's the boy we try to pretend we aren't looking for as
we make our way to class. He's the boy that we lie about and claim to not
care about anymore. He's the boy that gives you the cliché flutterbys,
complete with the weakness in the knees. He's the boy we're thinking about
as we read this. I think every single girl has this boy, and every single girl will
remember him forever he's not the one for us, but he'll always be
somewhere in our hearts.
I need a boy. A true guy. One who looks real tough,
but won't make me cry. I need that kinda guy who understands
and even when he's with his boys, he still says "baby, hold my hand".
He's gorgeous, but gorgeous is an understatement.
More like you're startled every time you see him
because you notice something new in a 'Where's Waldo'
sort of way. More like you can't stop writing third grade run
on sentences because you can't even remotely begin to
describe something, someone, so inherently amazing.
More like you're afraid that if you stare at him too long,
you'll prove your parents right that, yes, your
face will get stuck that way. But you don't mind.
I saw him staring at me.
Not glancing, but bluntly staring.
& I wondered if he was staring
at the wreckage he caused or if maybe,
just maybe, he regretted ever
hurting me in the first place.
she's standing on a line between giving up
and seeing how much more she can take.
they were in love. you could tell just by the
way they looked at each other, like they had the
most wonderful secret in the world between them.
To be honest with you,
I don't have the words to make you feel better,
but I do have the arms to give you a hug,
ears to listen to whatever you want to talk about,
and I have a heart;
a heart that's aching to see you smile again.
What's not fair is that you act as if your life
has ended. Be sad. Be angry. Shit, be
anything, but don't ever behave so
reprehensibly towards the people who
clearly love you. Have your emotional crisis,
but don't cut them out. Fucking things up
once in awhile is inevitable. But how you
choose to deal with those fuckups is not fated.
You have free will, and be grateful that you do.
Now. Move on, and find a better way of
dealing with your issues.
& every time you feel like crying,
i'm gonna try and make you laugh
and if i can't, if it just hurts too bad,
then we will wait for it to pass
and i will keep you company
through those days so long and black.
The best memories are the ones you
can't explain, you just had to be there.
It's those days where we sit around and
do nothing. It's those moments we cry.
It's the way we look at each other and
know what's going through each other's
heads. It's those stupid pictures and jokes.
That's the reasons we're best friends
There's a point in every friendship when girls
stop being friends and become sisters.
Here's to the nights when I didn't know left from right.
And you were there showing me, not telling me.
Here’s to the nights that went early into the morning.
And yet we were still pouring vodka into plastic cups.
Here’s to the phone calls that you took
Even if they were at 4 AM
Here’s to the nights we took long walks around just to talk
Here’s to the nights when even if I was doing something wrong
With someone I wasn’t supposed to be with, you were still there defending me
Here’s to the nights when I knew you were still gonna be there in the morning
Hung over and laughing about the night’s memories.
Here’s to being my best friend
(even if I wasn’t always at my best)
I don't buy into sappy bullshit anymore. I'm
done strapping a smile on my face & calling
myself happy, pretending the sun is always
shining while my pulse skyrockets and my
eyes lose track of all the things I see and
want to be. If nothing else I have learned in
my life, you only have yourself. You only
see what you want and you can only be the
best person you want to be.
This is for you, my best friend. The one person I can tell my soul to, who can relate to me like no other, who I can laugh with to no extent, who I can cry to when times are tough, who can help me with the problems of my life. Never have you turned your back on me or told me I wasn't good enough or let me down. I don't think you know what that means to me. You have gone through so much pain and you still have time for me and I love you for listening even when you're dying inside. And I look up to you because you're strong, and caring, and beautiful, even though you don't think you are. And I hope you know that I'm always here to listen to you laugh and cry and help in all the ways that I can, and I will try to be at least half the friend you are to me. I hope you know I would not be the person I am today without you, my best friend. Thanks for being the friend who's always believed in me, who's always understood, who's always accepted me, who's always cared.
Let's play hopscotch in malls.
Let's drive fast with the top down.
Let's turn up the music as loud as it'll go.
Let's put a couch on an island
in the middle of the freeway
and wave at everyone on their way to work.
Let's hug strangers in parking lots.
Let's hand out secret messages at traffic lights.
Let's make lists of all the things that make us smile
and tick them off, one at a time.
If nothing else, I’ve realized who I can count on.
The friends who can read my mind and finish my sentence.
Who call me in the middle of a text message,
or answer my question before I ask it.
Who tell me what's going on in my crazy head.
Once upon a year gone by, she saw herself give in
Every time she closed her eyes, she saw what could have been Well nothing hurts and nothing bleeds, when the covers are Tucked in tight. Funny how when the light goes out, How she forgets to fight.
i'm not supposed to be scared of anything,
but i don't know where i am. i wish that i
could move, but i'm exhausted and nobody
understands. i'm trying hard to breathe
now, but there's no air in my lungs.
there's no one here to talk to when the
pain inside is making me numb.
It doesn't hurt to dream, it hurts to wake up.
Because nothing sucks worse than feeling alone
no matter how many people are around.
And all she needs right now is for him to wrap her up in his arms, look her in the eyes, and tell her he won’t give up.
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